So okay. I’m going through a little panic attack, usual late night existential crisis sort of thing right now. Usually it’s about me freaking about the (UNCERTAIN) future, but this time it’s about my story that I’m sure you guys (except for a few of you) only have a vague idea of.
I just realized I’ve been working on the same story since 2007. Honestly, it hasn’t been a hard commitment, and it’s changed several times. But the few incarnations it did have, I ultimately cut off and wanted to start over. It’s too dramatic, it doesn’t feel sincere, blah blah blah… The several vignettes I’ve done however, though short and usually done without much thought, I had a lot of fun with and always finished.
It began as a stupid Halloween idea, but then it morphed into something a lot more complicated than that, and I think that’s where my frustrations and inability to move on began. I’m just wondering if I should dump all my research and planning for this huge epic I wanted to write, and keep it simple and to the point of what I always loved about it in the first place? Keep it true to that essence that always remains prevalent whenever I draw/write about it? Am I making it too overly complicated in hopes of making the next Harry Potter/Howl’s Moving Castle/insert-title-here? Instead of making it the story that it was supposed to be?
I’m 99% sure that my answer to all of these questions is along the lines of yes-you-dumb-idiot-how-did-it-take-you-this-long-to-figure-out
I know, this is such a non-issue and it’s stupid that I’m FREAKING OUT so much over it but oh god I so am and it’s ridiculous and AHHH
But it’s not like I’m going to dump all of my careful research and ideas… more like restructure the way the story is going to be told. Instead of this melodrama, stupid conspiracy plot I’ve been trying to construct without the intelligence/know-how to do so, I’m going to go back to its roots. The simple part of it.
Dudes I am so sorry I am clogging up your dashboards with this dribble I really am BUT I needed to let it it out and since this is tumblr I thought oh why not BUT BUT hey if you guys want to talk about the stresses of world-building/story-building LET’S CONNECT
why does this always happen at the most inconvenient of times
everyone else can have mako
^Pretty much my sentiment on the Korra premiere. Because of course the guy with the chip on his shoulder and the douchy scarf will get the girl
(Bolin is way better)
(But Tenzin is the best)